Suffocating Me
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What are you supposed to do when life is suffocating you and draining every ounce of happiness and peace from yourself. What do you do when all hope is gone? What do you say when you don't even know what's happening and everything is changing too fast? Most of all, what do you do when you're drowning yourself in your thoughts and push everyone away, and then you're left with absolutely nothing?
I always said that feelings were underrated. But these feelings, I can't shake. And I know that everything leaves, but this feeling isn't leaving. What if this is that one thing that I need? That everyone needs?
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