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Reads 180
Votes 3
Parts 13
Time 19m

unrealisticrealityx

binge cut depression harm purge sad self suicidal

i dont see the point
anymore
what the fuck
am i still doing here
why do i contemplate
the decision
when i could just go?
everyone would be better off
ive seen the pictures together
the memories with eachother
they have told me
i am not apart of any of that
im just in the way
i ruin it all
step by step
day by day
i fuck it all up
i fucking ruin it all
i fucking hate myself
i want it to all be over
but at the same time
i know the world is beautiful 
so maybe i dont want to die
but at the same time
i cant wait
to escape this body
and drown 
in the eternal dark
because living is torture
death is a present
and i am what
everyone resents
so why not grace?
how hard is it to kill yourself?
you have it all
the pills
the knife 
the blades
maybe even the rope
why dont you end it soon?
its not like you mattered anyone
you dont exist
nothing doesAll Rights Reserved

binge cut depression harm purge sad self suicidal

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My Short Life by ari12502

I didn't think about how I would cease to live. I always just thought about family and being myself and just going on with life without a care in the world. I just wanted to spend the last moment I had with that special person in my life, but I guess that will never happen. I have always wanted an anniversary since I was a little girl, and now that I had a chance to get one, I couldn't show up. I want to escape from this prison I'm in, but to do that I have to go through a lot of adventures and ups and downs before I can get away.

Tough Love (Completed) by Killjob

"Will be there in 20?" The message from Dean reads. My brain says I should text back saying 'I will rip your balls off if you come over' or 'I am not a sex toy, you could come over and use me as and when you please' or at least a simple 'No'. But I don't. I squat next to my bed and pull out the white powder to numb the pain. I told myself that I am done with Dean and I am going to get my life back together. I cleaned up, battled withdrawals and even improved my grades. One text from him and I am snorting coke. Why do I do this to myself? Why do I let Dean treat me like trash? Why do I set myself up knowing that it's only a matter of time before he will run back to Sherley leaving me in limbo? Why? l have asked myself the same question a million times but I couldn't come up with an answer that I can use to justify myself. When it came to Dean, I was a masochist. I let him use me and discard me without any fight. Dean was my first Friend. Kiss. Sex. Love. Everything. I wanted to be his everything too. I was his first Friend. Kiss and Sex but Love.. that was Sherley. His family chauffeur's daughter. I want to be a better human and say I didn't hate her. But I am not. I am just human and I hate her with the ferocious of a thousand sun. I hate that she plays him like a fiddle and he dances to it. I hate that they fight for silly reasons and Dean comes running to me. I hate that I let him in even when I know she will reel him back in no time. I hate that he is my weakness and Sherley is his. I wished that my best friend would turn to be my lover. But he just ripped my heart out. It time to let go and move on.

You Stole My Heart by sattvika98

He took wild steps towards her..pushing her fragile body on the walls and forcing his lips on her.... He was kissing her hungrily...his cold heart was not allowing her tears to melt him...he bitted her lip....she yelled in pain.. hitting his chest with her tiny hands... He left her due to lack of breath...he started giving wet kisses on her neck... Move...she pushed her forcefully... Please move... You promised that you will give me space until I feel comfortable with you.... Then why..???? She said sobbing between her hiccups... hugging her knees... I am your husband damn it I have the right to kiss you.... I waited for 6 months ..why you are punishing me...you have married me with your will then why....what's stopping you??? Can't you see my love for you in my eyes.. Answer me...he yelled gripping her shoulders... searching for an answer in her eyes... You are not the person who stole my heart..she said falling on the ground crying... But you are the person who stole my heart..he said in a broken tone

I Felt Used by LatinaNCali

"SO I WAS ONLY A BET TO YOU!" She yelled at me. "Look I'm sorry but at first it was, but then when we kiss it just change everything. I couldn't stop thinking about you after you left, then I was hurt and mad because you wouldn't give me your phone number," I was holding her hand looking at her apologetic. "You're such a dick and then you went and fuck one of those girls. I can't believe this I just knew you were mistake. I knew I shouldn't have fuck with you........you're too young and you act stupid. You know what I'm so done with you............UGH I feel so stupid," she walks away angrily.

the suicide mind by Dileyne18xo

"and you left me with bad habits like cracking my knuckles and wearing your sweater because the smell of you still lingers. you left me chewing at the skin of my skin on my lips because maybe just maybe if it's gone the taste of you will be too, but the problem is i can't tear off my skin. so i'm left with the shivers down my spine when my body remembers your hands running up my back as you kissed me and it paralyzes me because i miss it. i miss you. i miss smiling between kisses because damn you just made me happy and I thought I made you just as happy because you would smile and whisper "what" but i would just shake my head and pull you close and it was real. it was. all of it. so why did you leave me? why?"

Within Reach by Littlefuzzypeach

~One more step, was all it would take. To end it all. And here I was, about to take it.~ But what can you do when death doesn't want you dead? When life won't let you go? When the one person you truly live for is someone who your entire being screams at you to run from. When the world tips you upside down and leaves you there to hang. When the person you surround your self with is someone you should only ever meet once. When everything in your past messes with your future. Because Life was never meant to be this way. Not like this. For me, Living became a much harder thing to do, as soon as I found my reason for it. For something I'd always begged for, wants me too. But not how I would have ever deemed possible. It's not what I expected. For I'd never have imagined how close within my reach death really was.

Immortal (boy x boy) by Love2LoveYaoi

My life has always been terrible. I was always bullied at school. I don't know why, it just seemed that people didn't like my presence. The guys would beat me up and I'd get in trouble when I defended myself, for the teachers never saw what they did. The girls would trick me, making me think they liked me and laughing at me because of it. I was always in the principle's office for one reason or another, but I wasn't a bad student. I actually got really good grades. To make matters worse, my mother wanted nothing to do with me. She'd lock me in the basement, sometimes for days, with no food or warmth. My father would then sneak down and beat me before raping me. So, naturally, I wanted to die. But, for some reason, I can't die. No matter what I do, I can't stay dead. The thing I want more than anything is far out of my reach. Why can't I just die? Warning: mention of rape, suicide, and abuse. Also, this is a boy's love story.

Jesse's Redemption (manxman /werewolf || #lgbt) by notbackingdown

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The unreachable mountain by Growened

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Toxicity ¥Restore and Create¥ by freakishhnightmares

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