The day I meant it to be all over
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There I was, standing on the ledge, waiting. I needed to get it over with. I can't handle so much exngciety that was making me feel worthless. I had to get it done and over with. NOW!!!!
I was standing at the ledge of the tallest building of New Jersey, ready to jump off, until I felt someone or something grace me I screamed and just about jumped off, but that someone or something, held me back.
"Stop this Ellen you don't need to do this, you can't do this, you will make all these problems worse!!"
It was my so called friend Alyssa.
"If I do this all my problems are over, if that happened I will be happy, but now I just need SOME happiness in my life!!!!"
"But ending your life won't make this any better for anyone. Please just come back to the party with all your friends."
"Wha friends they all betrayed me, there nothing but mean, unwanted, back-stabbing people!!!!" I shrieked but the last thing I knew, my big fat, no good, "friends" we're apologizing with the cops next to them with
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