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How Do I Say I Love You?

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Parts 27
Time 4h 18m

baku deku ily trauma

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Bakugo wanted to be alone. No matter what he did on his own, someone was always right behind him as though he were some reckless little kid. He didn't want to be pitied when he was dealing with a problem.

Deku especially did this. 

Even though they both experienced the worst imaginable things, Bakugo always pushed Deku away when he even hinted at helping him. He needed to keep these things in. Hide them away.

After Bakugo gains new fears and a forgotten pain rises out of the dark, who will he turn to? How will he be able to overcome it?

How can he react to the issues of teenage years?

⚠️Trigger warnings⚠️
-slight self harm
-more sensitive stuff at the beginning
-PTSD kinda
-gore

Sorry if its too gorey and smutty, but thats what my brain told me to write. If its too much, I'd advise to not read it.

Vote, comment, or follow! All are greatly appreciated!

This is in the middle of revision so if you see a green heart in the chapter title, it has been revised. If you see an orange heart, it is in the middle of revision. For new readers, i advise that you only read until a chapter with an orange heart in the title.

THE COVER IS NOT MY ART! 

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#28 for the "ily" tag
#1 for the "fluffstuff" tagAll Rights Reserved

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Dear, BAKA-gou (BNHA AU) (DISCONTINUED) by Aheago_Amigo

'He must be scared of you, Midoriya! Scaredy, Cat-suki!' In this AU, we have Mean!Deku and Nice!Bakugo. It has always been like this, Bakugo being the direct target of all of Deku's sly comments. Deku has always been the one to be looked up to, even without a quirk he was by far the smartest, sportiest and most popular kid in school. Everyone adored his hero-likeness. Bakugo, on the other hand, has been the social punch-bag. His uncontrolable quirk, his anger issues, and his quick, irrational reactions, let alone his low-grades and the amount of times he has got into trouble with the teachers. Everyone hated his ambitions to become a hero. When Deku easily passed his way into UA, and Bakugo struggled to get into the suggestions list, a fire sparked within him. 'I wonder if I can become better than him...' 'I want to become better than him...' 'I can become better than him...' 'I will become better than him...' 'I NEED to become better than him...' Emotions fight with each other as new ones emerge, the suppressed ones that have never been revealed before. Desires and callings that have never been able to escape before are starting to break down the walls. A deadly secret kept by Deku that he was to carry to his early grave... All the while, a love story blooms. (BakuDeku, KatsuDeku, etc) (Maybe NSFW) (Picture isn't made by me, thanks to a person on Pinterest)

An explosive love by Rowan_Lewis

Deku would have gone his whole life without admitting his feelings for his childhood friend Kacchan, who seemingly hates him. But after being Kidnapped by a villain whose main goal is break them... their true feelings cannot be ignored. Through the pain and fear, the guilt and panic, the two grow closer than they ever did before, but will it be enough to get through the trauma they both endured? Will Deku and Kacchan be able to forgive themselves for choices they made in the past? Or will it eat them alive? **SUGGESTIVE CONTENT** -sex/other mature content -panic attacks/mental illness

Deadly Dreams (KiriBaku Story) by HolyNoodlesNBacon

⚠️Warnings⚠️ *Angst *Swearing *Death *Depression *Cutting If you are sensitive to any of this, you have been warned. Kirishima starts to all of a sudden have nightmares about his best friend, Bakugou. There is nothing he can do, he starts to fall into deep depression, talking to Midoriya only helps a little. He even begins avoiding Bakugou over all. He doesn't know how much he can handle before he breaks. Bakugou slightly brushes it off at first but starts to get really concerned about his good friend, Kirishima. He has been trying to talk but most of the time is responded with silence. He knows that Kirishima starts to talk to Midoriya a lot more and him less. He starts to get jealous? Kirishima begins to close himself off from everyone, he doesn't even want to talk to Midoriya or Bakugou. He still goes to school, but completely ignored when someone tries to talk to him. He starts wearing his hair down, and it starts to fade to its natural color. One day the villains attack, Kirishima wants to keep everyone safe, he wants to make sure he is the only that ever gets harmed during this. He doesn't want anyone to get hurt, he has been extremely cautious. Bakugou ignores Kirishima's warnings and goes after them anyways. 'I can't let it happen! I can't-' "KIRISHIMA!" Check out my other stories :> HolyNoodlesNBacon Cover doesn't belong to me Credit goes to taichichuwhat.tumblr

✔︎One Sided by BeanQueen_29

This Is a BakuDeku fanfic. Izuku's dream of being a hero changes after he got diagnosed to be quirkless. That dream had become a distant a fantasy but he soon twisted it into a new goal. He decided that no matter what, he was going to help people. He was going to do everything in his power to become a hero of his own. However, being diagnosed quirkless wasn't the only thing stopping him; his brain had been growing a tumor and blocking important parts of his life. How will the once raging blonde react when the green haired boy greets him more like a stranger with a hero obsession then as an old friend years later? More info: -Quirk! AU +quirkless deku -cover is mine but the art on it is not. - all medical aspects of this story are twisted cuz I want this story a specific way -I will add pictures/fanart throughout this book -Not all characters are mine they belong to the creator of the show Kohei Horikoshi - storyline is mine (except for the beginning)

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Soulmates: A BakuDeku Story- by Jaids1420

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✔︎One Sided cover

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Undercover No More (DekuBaku) cover

Soulmates: A BakuDeku Story- cover

Not Okay (Depressed Deku x Bakugou) {!Under Editing!} cover

Dead Boys (BakuDeku) cover

At first we're laughing Now we're crying (Depressed deku x Bakugo Book #1) cover

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