Six months ago, I lost my mum to cancer and my dad, 'The Rockstar', to work. Now, I don't do close. With anyone. My friend Rachel won't give up on me. And that's a problem.
So is David McFadden, a guy in my class who says he wants to help. Six months ago, he could have but didn't. Now, it's too late. The last person I'm going to listen to is David McFadden. When he calls me Ice Queen, I'll show him just how right he is.
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Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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