Ciarren (pronounced Keer-ren) went through a terrible experience that broken him in more ways than one. It forces him to leave everything behind, even his best friends. He blames himself for everything, blaming his desire to submit instead of the person who hurt him instead. He moves across the country, cuts contact with everyone he knew, and focuses on surviving the nightmares, flashbacks, panic attacks, anxiety, and nightmares. He becomes a recluse of the person he was, throwing himself into work and only leaving his house when absolutely necessary. However, it is work that brings him face to face with his desire or the two people who can fulfill his desire. This story is about him breaking, crumbling, and healing. Learning to live again with the help of two men to show him that his submission is something to be cherished and that it is not his fault, but the one who hurts him. Watch as Ciarren heals, falls in love, and receives justice. This little rose bud will bloom with the help of a little water and sun.
WARNING: This story will heavily involve BDSM. There will be graphic scenes, steamy scenes, swearing, sadness, happiness, tears, fear, anxiety attacks, panic attacks, mentions of blood, abuse, etc. There WILL NOT be trigger warnings before these scenes. If you cannot read these scenes, I suggest you do not read this book. THIS IS THE ONLY WARNING. READ WITH YOUR OWN DISCRETION.
The story of a boy, a man, and a lie.
Leo, an 18 year old high school senior overwhelmed by the pressures of work and school, finds himself desperately seeking an escape. His search leads him to an exclusive BDSM nightclub, a world he's never thought of dabbling in. When he catches the eye of a dominant, Leo faces a choice: will he run away from this intense new experience, or will he embrace it and seek more?
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•⚠️Content Warnings ⚠️
-Violence (physical, emotional.)
-Mention of drug use (Light)
-Gay smut
-Sex
-Homophobia (Very Light)
-Swearing/Slurs
-AGE GAP!!!
-BDSM topics
-Bullying
This story contains mature content between males! Do not report or hate just because you dislike mxb, bxb or mxm!
Side note: This is not solely a smut filled story. Contrary to popular belief, there is in fact a storyline.
I will at some point go back and tidy up my writing to make it look and flow better. My earlier chapters are honestly horribly written
•Start date: January 21, 2023
•End date: February 17, 2024
Word Count: 174k
•Rankings:
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#4- mature
#3- mxm
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#7- mxb
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