When our lips finally locked, it felt like he had found a key and opened a door to my heart, leaving it open wide for him to sneak into anytime he wanted. And in that moment, I knew I would let him because no matter how many times he had warned me against it, I had fallen for him. My heart took all the strain from the fall from heaven, and now it was bleeding. And I don't think it would ever stop. He could rip it apart, and I would still hold on to the hope that he would choose to heal it instead.
TW: VERY IMPORTANT!!!!
This book will have self-harm, suicidal thoughts, and might have suicide attempts. Also, some of the characters lose loved ones over the course of the book. There will be mentions/examples of EDs, abuse, and emotional trauma. And smut. If any of these trigger you, PLEASE STOP READING and if you need help or need to talk to anyone, I'm here.
Draco had dealt with enough death to make peace with his own. Getting a handle on his emo angst, he assumed his life would end after Dumbledore's murder. He didn't expect to keep living. He didn't expect to find something, someone left living for. He didn't expect to reach out to Harry Potter for help. Even more so, Draco didn't expect to fall in love with him in doing so.
This is a slow-burn romance and redemption Drarry fic written by a touch-starved queer person with a newly rekindled love for Paramore and MCR. Enemies-to-lovers always hits different when 'Playing God' is in the soundtrack!
Get ready for Draco 'overthinking is my therapy' Malfoy, Harry 'not settling for less' Potter, nonbinary Hermione, and supportive best friend Ron, with appearances of 'awkward big brother' Bill and other notable Weasleys.
Explicit consent and content warnings are important to me. This fic is mostly a safe space, with warnings added to relevant chapters (there's no SA/abuse in general). Yet, if anxious/angsty overthinking isn't your thing, maybe just skip this entire fic.
(This book contains sexual content and strong language, so mature audiences only.)
Chapters 1-45 have been edited in February 2022 for more consistent paragraph etiquette. All later chapters have this editing done before posting. Bonus chapters still yet to be edited.