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MAYOWA

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Reads 16
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Parts 7
Time 50m

christain love pain

How do you find yourself in a world, that is lost in itself. The pain, the heartache, the tragedy, the lies, the betrayals, the tears. Sometimes I think life's not worth leaving and I want to end it. How do you leave you mark on the already stained world, should we bleach it first then start afresh. What am I saying?, I don't even understand myself. My name is MayowaAll Rights Reserved

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ALONE✅ by khayr_Souf

Fear sometimes, many times, creep up my spine and settles into my skin. I fear so many things in life. Death, snakes, the dark, clown with eerie smiles, an uncomfortable silence and being watched without knowing. All these are things, however that grip my soul with minimum intensity. The one thing that gets a strong hold of me, that closes down and crushes the walls on me is... the feeling of being alone. Not just the absence of a person that loves me, not only the death of a loved one but the soul-jacking fear of my whole being that engulfs me even when I am in the midst of people. The fear of being abandoned, of being left behind, of not understood, of being enclosed in a bubble no one can burst. The fear of looking down at my hands and knowing no one will interlink with them, of having thoughts no one will hear, of gulping down panic because as much as I am here in the midst of people I know and love, no one will take a step forward to assure their presence. The fear of being alone.

Doubts 2 by SherryB915

Part 2 of "Doubts" It was that same feeling I felt deep inside me the day my grandparents left me. My stomach began to cringe. My throat was in knots. My breathing had gotten hard. My instincts were telling me something just wasn't right. I felt useless and alone... I had always knew pain my whole life but this was next level. That feeling of holding back and regret filled my veins with agony. I was lost in my thoughts. My heart felt colder and colder with every minute that passed by. Who am I ? Who am I really ? What is my purpose in this life that I lived? That I once knew ..... why did this bad luck fall upon my life? What did I do to deserve this ? I'm cursed. I have to be. I cried so much in that hospital bed that no tears seemed to want to fall anymore. I had no tears left in me to shed. When Akeem left this room, I knew it would be the last time that I would see him. My better half. My Ace. My love. My husband. My life. Gone. Forever. It wasn't confirmed but I knew it. I just knew it. Life fucked me hard. So why not throw it back.

Survivors Of The Lost by iamaaliyahakram

2020/05/29 #105 Sorrows #394 spiritual First I thought to tell you everything, What Iam hiding and why? But then I realized, Do you care about it? I love hard. Embarrassingly hard. All in type of hard. But I do silently. I drown the feelings in my gut until I'm heavy with 'I want you' and 'I love you' and 'I miss you'. I hold my hope in my throat. I clutch my wishes in my hands. They become moist with sweat until I no longer want them. If you could read me you would have known, I never wanted you to leave until now. It was just the situation where holding on to you was more difficult than letting you go. I loved you, I cried, I apologised, I made efforts, And Finally I lost myself.

Love Conquers All (COMPLETED) by Elliez1432

The society we are living is harsh where power and money is the biggest foundation to live a life. A world where love between both men is disgusting and unacceptable. Will love make people realize that the only thing people need to survive? Two different worlds. Two different people with different sorrow and completely opposite personality. How will they handle the kind of life they have? What if they meet each other? Will they understand each other? Will love break their guarded heart? Gulf Kanawut, a mysterious, silent and genius young man. A heart full of sorrow which guards his heart. A silent yet popular graphic designer. Known for his exceptional skills and cold aura. Will love mend his broken heart? 'Wake up fight with the world don't fight against the world because you'll never win' 'Don't change yourself because of me or someone else. Change because you know it'll make you better and to prepare yourself to survive even without those people you treasured the most' 'You broke down the wall I built for many years but I want to thank you for making me realize that I should have built my wall stronger' 'I love you but that doesn't mean I love you more than myself' Mew Suppasit, a cold hearted man. The CEO who is adored by many because of his handsome appearance. He is judged because of his tough personality but the soft side of him is hidden because of fear, fear to fall in love again and fear to trust again. Will love find his lost self? 'Don't judge me as if you know me, I may be cold but that doesn't mean I'm a monster. I'm human too, I can feel pain too' 'I tried to break your barrier slowly with so much patient and love. I gave all my effort to build your trust yet you're giving up on me just as easy as that? How could you?' 'I changed myself because I love you more than I love my own life but now you're leaving me? Do you think I can survive?' 'LOVE IS A FEELING, CHOICE, SACRIFICE AND TOGETHER LOVE WILL CONQUER ALL'

Wave (Book 2) by Anniezie

I had survived the first. That was then; this is now. The blindfold of so many pills slowly died away and first though my finger then my head, a passion, a hurt and a need filled me as every moment was consumed with words; every breath with wisps of ink. But they were not all captured and somewhere in the deep abyss of living, lies the unspoken, almost unfelt feelings of decades in months. This is the half-empty account off all those nights from December through into the new year and the end of March. ...I pains me to share it. But it also makes it just not my problem anymore and that is something I long for- freedom and peace. Please note that all grammatical and linguistic, as well as those in punctuation and spelling or placing of words were intentional. If you LIKE this and want me to write a commentary on each poem and picture (as in my previous collection Apfel), please show me in comments and votes :) PLEASE DO NOT COPY any of the poetry or pictures.

𝔻𝔸𝕃𝕀𝔸ℍ by zeeiyyy

𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑝𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑒𝑑, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑏𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑒, 𝑆ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑦𝑒𝑑, 𝑆ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 𝑣𝑖𝑜𝑙𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑑, 𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟?

A Beautiful Journey (Completed)✔ by LonelyPrincess239

"Why will you loose me?" I asked with frowns and he sighed closing his eyes. "Do you love me?" He asked looking deep in my eyes and I nodded my head. "Crazily. Madly." I said looking in his eyes which were filled with fear? But why? "Then marry me." He said and I sighed. "But may I know the reason?" I asked and he sighed ruffling his hair. "No you can't. Just marry me." He said looking at me and I narrowed my eyes at him. "What if I say no?" I said looking at him and he sighed. "Then I don't have any option other than this." He said keeping a blade on his wrist making my eyes widened and heart beat in fear. Zahran Malik. 23 years old. Hardworking and a practicing muslim. Alhamdulillah. Studying Culinary Arts and wants to be successful one day. Runs a café of his own. Has a sister who is his only family and he loves her beyond anything. Anoosha Khan. 23 year old. A hardworking girl with arrogant and hard personality. Studying business and at the same time handling business of her family. A family whom she hates the most. Let's join the journey of these beautiful birds and see how they overcome their hardships together. How they meet and how they bloom the love in their hearts. Hearts which are filled with many good things and many pains too. Let's see how they go together on their Beautiful Journey. :) (: Started- 25-06-2021 Completed- 15-09-2021

DESTINY.... (ss).... ❤(completed) by TheEcstatic_Aroma

so here you go with my story.... ignore the mistakes if any as it is my first story... in this os you would see...betrayal.... love.. pain... longingness... bohot bol liya na?.... 😂...ab aage ka khud hi padh lo.... hope you guys like it ❤❤

Mending His Heart✔✔ by aeesha_ahmad

Completed✔✔ Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim With the ups and the downs of this world, never fret never frown Allah know's. No matter what's inside or out there is something of which there is no doubt Allah knows, Allah knows. And wherever lies in the heavens and the earth. Every star in this whole universe Allah knows. With a smile on their face But a hidden pain in their heart living them in darkness With a small hint of hope Telling them that everything will be okay And maybe Just maybe they will get to see their love one's one day. If Today they're are happy The next day they will be sad Wanting to leave the world And perhaps they will find peace there. But that day never comes Their life gets tough everyday Everything seems as if the world is against them And whenever they thinks Of a wrong thing they did They never get one But why are they so many challenges in their life?. They don't want to trust Because they're afraid Afraid of another pain For they're not heal from the previous one. And now in their room As they stare at the darkness With no feelings in their heart But words on their mouth That fails to express They only find the courage to scibble some words And they just hope that one day they will see their light at the end of all the sufferings. If you're ready to join this ride with me kindly tighten your belt because it's gonna be a roll coaster ride with me💃💃💃❤ Aeesha_ahmad ❤.

Finding my Leelen [completed] by AlmaaaGgg

I'm weak and broken, tormented by monsters that keep reaching for me, touching my body, hurting me, living marks on my skin and soul. I don't know how it feels to sleep without waking up in the middle of the night sweating, incapable of defending myself, too afraid to scream for help. Until I meet him. He is strong enough to cast away the nightmares, to fight my demons scaring them away, to erase my scars with his tender touch. He teaches me to fight back, to be strong, to scream for help because now there is someone always coming to my rescue. Because now I have someone who loves me. Now I have him, my beautiful warrior, my soulmate, my leelen. We might not have met like normal people would, but again we are not normal and we are definitely not people. Even so our bond is stronger than anything and anyone. But finding my leelan is not the end of my story, it's just the beginning...

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ALONE✅

Fear sometimes, many times, creep up my spine and settles into my skin. I fear so many things in life. Death, snakes, the dark, clown with eerie smiles, an uncomfortable silence and being watched without knowing. All these are things, however that grip my soul with minimum intensity. The one thing that gets a strong hold of me, that closes down and crushes the walls on me is... the feeling of being alone. Not just the absence of a person that loves me, not only the death of a loved one but the soul-jacking fear of my whole being that engulfs me even when I am in the midst of people. The fear of being abandoned, of being left behind, of not understood, of being enclosed in a bubble no one can burst. The fear of looking down at my hands and knowing no one will interlink with them, of having thoughts no one will hear, of gulping down panic because as much as I am here in the midst of people I know and love, no one will take a step forward to assure their presence. The fear of being alone.