To Be Or Not To Be?
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Last published Wed, Oct 31, 2012
Lexie, a girl perceived differently by various groups of people. Some thinks she’s a teacher’s pet, innocent, obedient…and the list goes on but only those close to her know that these assumptions couldn’t be further from the truth. She tricks herself into believing that she has everything needed to make her feel whole, but something is missing, and soon she is filled with a thirst that only freedom can quench.
She’s a dirty-minded virgin, a star pupil with a desire to break all the rules, a wild, flirtatious animal bound to break free. When she strays away from her good girl antics and experiences life will she lose herself in the moment and in doing so be sucked into a life of regret or will she remember the other half of herself, which is the voice of reason itself?
To make matters worse she will find herself sucked into a world she never knew existed. With good comes bad and in moments of madness not everyone can be saved. She will find things about herself that makes her question her sanity but will her humour and wit be enough to ground her or will she be lost to the idiocy raging around her?
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