He was a tornado that came into my life and turned everything upside down, but to be fair I was lost and confused even before he came into my life. People would say I was uptight and needed to relax and have fun, but how can you have fun when you were constantly trying to be perfect. My main goal in life was to win the Mavis Van Hoogen trophy at the end of high school. This trophy meant everything to me, it was given to the student that was poised, graceful well spoken, helpful, well behaved and basically everything parents dream their perfect child to be. I wanted to be perfect and this trophy told everyone that I was perfect, but after I won it I felt completely lost.
Without any direction, I followed my parent's wishes and set off to study at the University of Cape Town. On the way, I met him he had taken the bus to Cape Town after flipping a coin. He was reckless, he was spontaneous, he was in my opinion crazy and yet I secretly longed to be as carefree as he was. That is probably why I agreed to his insane plan.
For one year I was not going to plan, I was not going to worry, I was going to go with the flow, he was going to plan, he was going to worry and he was going to take me on "the adventure of my life" as he put it.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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