Intoxicated
ayiannabarnes
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ayiannabarnes
Complete, First published Jan 06, 2021
Mature
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How do you forgive yourself for the things you've done, or for what you could've?

He didn't see it coming. The car - the flash of lights. The screech as it slammed into him. Not through his drunken haze as he wandered in the darkness.
Alone. 
It's all my fault. I could've saved him, I should've. He's dead because of me. I'd do anything to take it back. To make it up to him. Anything at all. Even then, nothing I do will bring him back.

Jamie Wayne has felt dead for as long as he has been. She's been visited by death before, but not like this. It's different. The pain is supposed to go away, or at least dull. 
After the death of her mother only a year ago, she and her father moved to a new town where she met Alex. Everyone knew him as the kind, attractive and socially acceptable guy he was. Except he was more than that - he was the light at the end of the tunnel when all she could find was darkness. 
But everything's different now. He's gone - dead.

Nothing about it is normal, or makes sense. The only thing she knows for sure is that it isn't getting better - it's only getting worse. The more she remembers, the more she wants to forget. Everyone else already has. Only her mind won't let her, which makes her wonder if there's more to it. Or if there's a way to fix it. 

For once, she has to guide herself through the darkness to reach the light at the end of the tunnel on her own. If there is any.
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It was the drunk diver who started it. With one swerve killed both my parents and sent me and my brother into some foster place. Then it was that fever. They did nothing. They couldn't do anything, it was to late, my brother was gone. Now I wander the streets of Japan with a new look, new name, new title, and a new life. Not a pretty one, and definitely not a clean one, but it's all I got. With my only two friends at my side and my scythes in my hands I'm fine. Well I was, until I met a boy who changed everything. I hate him. He made me rethink my whole life. The things I do and why I do them. Because of him my whole life was turned upside down and now I don't know where to go or where I even am. Because of this boy, wounds reopen. Truths revile, and lies open up from my past to haunt my every step. I hate that boy, but...at the same time I don't. Can I really? I mean, can a person like me, who's done such wrong and has felt such pain really, I mean really...fall in love? ____________________________________________________________________________ Maria Case lives an awful life. Her only friends are two shinigamis. One who is her's and another who as been banished from her home. With shinigami eyes and a death note Maria is equipped to end her parents, but they die before she can do it. After losing her little brother to disease Maria decides she's done with life in America. She then hops the next flight to Tokyo Japan where she, Ciro, and Kenyo set up a new life. At first, everything is fine, but when the now Luna meets some weird detectives while working on an even weirder case she starts to rethink everything. Luna is forced to weigh experience and love, and moral and duty. Also, when her past and all her locks and chains begin to loosen how will Luna react, and more importantly, how will the world react?

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