okay...
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Okay my psychologist thinks that this diary could help me so here I am. Sure maybe it can really help someone but tbh I don't think that it's gonna be me but I have nothing to loose now duh.
And hey you, yeah you who's reading this (which is probably against my will) I'm warning you this shit ain't gonna be pretty
So hope that you and this notebook which cost me 2$ at Walmart will enjoy my fucked up story.
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