three am calls

"Do you know what Rubatosis means?"

"No, what does it mean?"

"It means the unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat."

"And why are you telling me this?"

Because every moment I'm with you my heart decides to beat loudly against my rib cage, it was so loud sometimes that I could hear nothing but the fast pace it was beating at. It could be suffocating sometimes but as I lay in bed in the middle of the night recalling the way my heart was beating gave me a feeling of comfort, it made me feel alive.

"No reason, it was just a word I stumbled upon one day and thought it was interesting."