𝒘𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒚 𝒇𝒆𝒘 ( 𝒛𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒚 )

" Sometimes you're 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You're just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. Also more exciting things like books you're reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don't feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but " mum's " probably wouldn't feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listend everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five minute period where nostalgia is too much and the thoughts of this person you are feels foreign. When you realise you'll never be this young again but this is the first time you've ever been this old. When you can't remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee is done. You are going to breathe in and out, you are going to be fine in about five minutes. "

~ High Wire Darlings (Kalyn Roseanne Livernois)