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you don't know me, but you will after you read this. this is about what I've gone through since i was 8 years old, a disease that quite literally destroyed me. others may say that "people have gone through worse", believe me I've heard it all. But what i need you to understand is that not everybody is as strong as they perceive to be, not everybody is strong enough to endure pain in any shape of form. sometimes enough is enough. welcome to my story.
"I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me"- Phillipians 4:13
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