MY INVISIBLE CROWN (On Going)

I'm no longer a pure woman. Yes, I gave it to him at the age of 18. I didn't expect after I sacrificed that 'thing', he will leave me like nothing happened. Is this my karma? Is this the payment of what I have done to my family? After leaving them all of my problems and let them solve it, do I really deserve this kind of pain? Where am I? What would I do? Because after all of what happened to me, I really want to show MY INVISIBLE CROWN.