33 parts Complete MatureI didn't want to be without her...
Her beautiful face, infectious smile, her long, lean body, and the way she made me feel.
But as time passed, and in the cruel way that familiarity and knowledge can sometimes work together against your dreams, the way I saw her changed, and how I saw myself.
I slowly woke to the severe reality of our relationship, chosen in the hope of living out an unfulfilled ideal, and the way she made me feel became inescapable. I willed the strength to be away from her....
On the pages that follow, I've attempted to describe events, some dated back as far as 25 years ago, that led to failed relationships, my broken marriage, and a temporary collapse of what had been a productive life.