Shooting star

My life has always been a rolerkoster with a lot of ups and downs. I've had times in where I feel on top of the moon but also in where I just want to end everything. Everytime when I thought that I was accepting my flaws something always came in between and destroyed it. It destroyed all my selfconfident everything. And today, I am standing on a path where I either have to chose me or my familys dignity. No one is forcing me accept for myself. I am forcing myself into this. After all my dreams and hopes I have build up all these years although my scares. When its finally time to se them in reality I have shatterd them. I have destroyed every single ray of light from those dreams.

I am a 19 years old pakistani named Nimra Siddiqui and today I lost my love!