Will it ever go away? ON PAUSE

So I'm a girl who has anxiety and is very depressed so some bits may be based on true facts. I don't feel like telling someone about my situation so I've started writing and it's the only thing that keeps my mind off committing suicide and I wanted to write something before I did kill my self. I really hope this isn't too shitty
**TW** WARNING** this is gonna have some delicate topics: self harm, suicide attempts, depression, bad panic attacks, abuse, anorexia, smoking and swearing.
this may have smutty content but it's not
written to have a smutty background.
Please tell me with who you would like to have a relationship IF you would like a relationship with someone.
Don't judge this book please and don't start assuming stuff coz you're just gonna show how small your dumb brain is.
I don't own any of the characters!
THANK YOU and I'll stop taking