Before I Die
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Last published Thu, Jan 14, 2021
It's so funny how when you're young you have the world at your fingertips and nothing can stop you. You have dreams of becoming an astronaut, a famous musician, a movie star and for rare cases like mine, a wife.
You plan your whole life around this dream and for many people you grow up and simply change your mind or if they're determined enough you accomplish them.
For me, I was diagnosed with a rare condition at the age of nineteen that has no cure.So it's fair to say that my dreams of a pink wedding may never come true, not in this lifetime at least.
Overtime I have became okay with that, because it's not about the things you do in your lifetime-it's about the people you impact along the way. A lesson I learned from my very first doctor, my little sister.
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