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Before I Die

BrittanyLeeParker

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BrittanyLeeParker

It's so funny how when you're young you have the world at your fingertips and nothing can stop you. You have dreams of becoming an astronaut, a famous musician, a movie star and for rare cases like mine, a wife. 

You plan your whole life around this dream and for many people you grow up and simply change your mind or if they're determined enough you accomplish them. 

For me, I was diagnosed with a rare condition at the age of nineteen that has no cure.So it's fair to say that my dreams of a pink wedding may never come true, not in this lifetime at least. 


Overtime I have became okay with that, because it's not about the things you do in your lifetime-it's about the people you impact along the way. A lesson I learned from my very first doctor, my little sister.All Rights Reserved

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