How "it" feels

It's always there no matter what or no matter how hard I try to forget it the feeling is always there. I hate it so much feeling this way and being so isolated but it's no ones fault but my own it's the path I've chosen to go. I may seem happy most of the time but only for that one second. I'm in a crowded room slowly loosing life. Even though I may have a boyfriend and the most amazing friends in the world I'm lonely because no one understands what it feels like and I've become so cold on the inside its so hard for me to open up to people again and show them my true feelings. I have to remember that in every storm or every dark place there is light and that's what I'm trying to find but I think I may have already found it. That's what makes me the happiest every day just seeing her face or just talking to her she is the light in my dark room and I'm trying to get better slowly but surely. Remember it may not be a good day but there's always something good in every day.