Chaser

How could I wish and be desperate for something I can't and won't even handle? It was right before my eyes, yet I refused to believe and accept. How could I want something I know I will never have? I want it to go away, but at the same time, I want it to stay, in the hope of having it in return. Some mind I have. When I finally realized I had it, that's when I got refused. He already stopped the chase. But mine had just begun.