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The Beginning Of My Ending (On Hold)

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Parts 13
Time 1h 14m

Heart logic and Mind logic are often two very different things. It has to feel right to make sense and if it doesn't feel right but it seems to make sense. It feels right but it's wrong. It sounds right but it feels wrong.

With the world around us. What happens when you are trapped in your heart and minds sick  games, having to choose whether to give in or let go.

Arizona Graviór, age 17 was one of the many victims to succumb to the heart's desires and mind's warnings. Trapped in her own mind and heart, trying to get through each day without losing herself in the process. Past friends and foe's return from the  past, will she give or will she overcome , will she ever learn to let it go of the past or will she just disappear like most wanted her to.

Will she overcome her fears and finally discover and accept herself?

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