did it hurt, the way you burned through the waterfalls, the way you thought beyond the curtain was more to life, but it all seemed just the same things, just the same things, the same things, just the same old pain. to escape the torture, from the pain, from the times I felt nothing, the times I felt I was nothing, the times nothing felt me. to escape from the torture from before, just for it to come back, just for me to meet the same tools, the same techniques, the same tactics, the same elastic leather belt, just hurting worse than what it felt before. (excerpt from Alluristic Notes #0.01) a story of a child that is left behind by everyone that he's willing to stay with. the journey where he meets friends who care and enemies who kill. going through the toughest battle in human development, puberty and adulthood. how will he find a way to love? how will his life turn out? will he ever be happy in his life? that is the question that this book answers this book caters the neurodivergent children who never felt that they fit in society. to shine the spotlight on puberty and the darkest sides that it provides. I hope this book touches you as much as it touches my heart.