You Let Me Love
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Last published Fri, Aug 20, 2021
I struggle with love. It brings me guilt and pain because why should I be able to love when I should be dead. I should have died the same day my parents did, but because of some miracle, I'm alive. I hate myself every signal day for that. Silly right? You should be happy you're alive. No. Not happy. I'm mad. The only other person I ever loved was my ex. But when he said "I love you", I ran away. Because I couldn't bear the pain I felt from hearing those words. So after that day, I swore to stay away from any type of love and feelings of happiness. I spend my days crying out my pain and studying until I fall asleep. It's an endless cycle. Honestly, I think I overwork myself, but if it keeps my thoughts away and makes me forget I'll do it. The pain and guilt I feel make me believe I'm unlucky. Unlucky because I'm alive. Unlucky because I don't have a caring family. Unlucky because I'm used as someone's outlet. Unlucky because I can't feel normal without feeling that pain or guilt first. Then comes along Anzai, arrogant, smart, tough, soft, and every little thing he does he makes me feel wanted. For the first time in my life, I don't want to run away. But when the guilt kicks in I don't know what to do. Can he deal with my past? Can he deal with my pain? How do I finally expect love? What will he do if I make the wrong choice in the end?
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"Will be there in 20?" The message from Dean reads. My brain says I should text back saying 'I will rip your balls off if you come over' or 'I am not a sex toy, you could come over and use me as and when you please' or at least a simple 'No'. But I don't. I squat next to my bed and pull out the white powder to numb the pain. I told myself that I am done with Dean and I am going to get my life back together. I cleaned up, battled withdrawals and even improved my grades. One text from him and I am snorting coke. Why do I do this to myself? Why do I let Dean treat me like trash? Why do I set myself up knowing that it's only a matter of time before he will run back to Sherley leaving me in limbo? Why? l have asked myself the same question a million times but I couldn't come up with an answer that I can use to justify myself. When it came to Dean, I was a masochist. I let him use me and discard me without any fight. Dean was my first Friend. Kiss. Sex. Love. Everything. I wanted to be his everything too. I was his first Friend. Kiss and Sex but Love.. that was Sherley. His family chauffeur's daughter. I want to be a better human and say I didn't hate her. But I am not. I am just human and I hate her with the ferocious of a thousand sun. I hate that she plays him like a fiddle and he dances to it. I hate that they fight for silly reasons and Dean comes running to me. I hate that I let him in even when I know she will reel him back in no time. I hate that he is my weakness and Sherley is his. I wished that my best friend would turn to be my lover. But he just ripped my heart out. It time to let go and move on.Complete
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