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silentlysighing

I sit here, in my dark thoughts.
Wondering how the hell I'm going to make it til dawn.
I contemplate my own destruction. 
My hips are dripping crimson red. From my old, old friend. 
Who would've thought that I would ever let such a small piece of metal define me. Constantly bringing me comfort; Numbness if you will. 
I'm losing this fight. I don't know how I'll survive tonight. 
Silently, quietly I look for a tool. But there are so many. A gun? Bleach? Ah, perhaps a rope?
I pull up a stool. Grab a notebook. 
As I'm writing my final farewells, a tear leaves an imprint on the paper, causing the pen to smudge.
Next, I grab the rope. I've long since learned the art of tying a noose. 
I place the loop around my neck.  The other side attached to my ceiling fan. I stand on the stool. 
I'm sobbing by now. 
And as I utter my final goodbyes to this cruel world. I think to my poor mother. My dear, dear mother. 
I've caused her so much pain... 
I jump.... 
And just like that I cease to exist..כל הזכויות שמורות

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Br(ok)en
יום א׳, נוב׳ 2, 2014

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