Ambivalence
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When Snow comes back to the school district he used to go to as a young boy. He dislikes everyone to varying degrees, and still has a strong grudge against certain people. But when his 'nemesis' comes to school looking wildly different. He suddenly starts feeling a strange compassion for them. Gazing upon them from a distance every chance he could. Not being able to recognizing why he's feeling this way, he knows that it is definitely not 'normal' for him. Now having to figure out what he's feeling and why, he has to confront himself. Reflecting on his ways so to speak. Will it be for better or for worse?
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