december is for cynics
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Last published Fri, Nov 7, 2014
"Winter just wasn't my season."
Rabbit knows that she's not okay.
When she runs away from home in the middle of the night to bury herself in the snow, she finds herself brought back to reality. She has been wandering around in a foggy world, losing touch with herself and everyone around her. And she's ready for the small world she has created for herself to fall apart in the winter blizzard.
Then, a small hand reaches out to pull her out of the snow at the last minute and Rabbit has no choice but to open her eyes and realize the mess her own personal snowstorm has created in her wake.
A story about a girl who believes all she is made of is her eating disorder, follow her as she finds herself taken from her world of obsessive calorie-counting and thrown into a whole new world with another girl that has a bright smile and sinful eyes.
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