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Book 4: WDNB Series (FINAL INSTALLMENT)


Ambivalence: the state of having contradictory ideas.

Kieran lives in a constant state of ambivalence. He is loved and feels unloved. He is needed and feels unneeded. He is wanted by, well everyone it seems, but yet he feels unwanted... because how could anyone want him if they knew who he really was?

Ciel, heir to the Sun Kingdom throne, wants Kieran more than anything in the world. He doesn't care that Kieran keeps him at arms distance, giving him whatever he wants but never truly letting him in. He doesn't care that Kieran seems to be hiding things from him. he doesn't even care that his parents are insisting he marry Iris.

Iris, a child of mysterious origins now a grown merman, seems desperate not to get involved. Does he want to marry Ciel? Maybe not... but he'd rather not upset the sun goddess. He's seen first hand what the wrath of Solar looks like and he's not interested.

It has been nearly eighteen years since the signing of the treaties between the Moon and Sun people. Everyday, they get once step closer to a total cease fire. Lord, future Alpha to his pack, works everyday in the name of his late brother to accomplish that goal. One day, while visiting Sun Kingdom territory, he comes across a boy with his face. 

Four young men, pawns in a chess match reaching its end... but what kind of end will it be? What could result of ambivalence to the highest degree?All Rights Reserved

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Trying Not To Love (COMPLETED) by Books_and_nerds

I stepped forward and asked, "Where do you want me?" It took me a second to realize what I just said. Shit! I placed a hand on my crimson face and muttered, "Get your head out of the gutter! You know what I meant." He laughed, his voice sounded hoarse and deep even when he's laughing. I peeked at him from the gap I made between my fingers. He was close. So close. He grabbed my hand and took me to the bed. Damn! It did sound sexy. His shirt was loose. Too large for me, and it hung on me like a cloth hung on a hanger. He sat on the bed, criss crossed and pulled me to him. ♡♡♡♡♡ The thing about love is... its unpredictable. Even when you don't want love, it just happens. Cassandra is your typical anti-social tomboy where Easton is your black leather jacket high school bad boy. Cassandra and her siblings arrive at Brinkley mansion hoping the year to get by quickly so they can be back with their dad. But then they meet Easton who has a different plan for them. The to-be sole heir of Brinkley Inc., rude, party lover, filled with nothing but rage for the invaders in his house, becomes determined to bring the truth out to world about his father by making the lives of Cassandra and her siblings living hell. Cassandra is not supposed to fall in love with someone like Easton who not only doesn't want her here but also isn't even available. Join these two teens in their journey to find what's right kind of love, or is there even a righteousness to love? ☆ Copyright 2020 @Books_and_nerds (DestinyK.) ADDED TO THE "LOVE, ACTUALLY" READING LIST BY YOUNG ADULT ON WATTPAD! _________ ☆ I DO NOT OWN THE BOOK IMAGE OR ANY OF THE PICTURES IN THIS BOOK. -THANK YOU ☆ I DID MAKE THE BOOK COVER MYSELF (THANKS TO CANVA) ☆ DO NOT copy my hard work. The rules just became more strict and WATTPAD polices are very clear about it.

It's Time to Choose, Soldier (BxB) by Soggy_Tortilla18

The world is now in ruins. Most of the world gave up on trying to keep the peace between countries leaving everything to fall apart. Now the world was just completely chaotic. But as we began to destroy ourselves we found the answer to end our war once and for all. Kids. Those who have the most energy, the most resistance, and the most impulsive would be the ones to save us all for the world's permanent end. How? Simple, they needed to learn to fight, think, and act like soldiers. But in a world, this catastrophic, is there even any room for to have a personal life? Room for love? (P.S. This book is under constant editing. There are some major changes that may appear throughout your reading experience. I'm not saying you have to but if you want, be on the lookout for any updates or changes to already published chapters. Aside from that, happy reading!) (P.P.S. This is my first original story that I've published so depending on how this one does, I'll gauge my audience and see what people want in the future from me and my writing)

Side By Side by Sagittarius_books

Marrying a straight person isn't good at all. But falling in love with a straight person is it wrong? Having crush on him for several years is it a crime? Forcefully marrying someone who doesn't love back it's not healthy isn't it? But what if you're confused about yourself? Do you want to explore the sensation or do you want to shrug it off like nothing? Or do you want to take another chance after doing a blunder...? Confusing isn't it? 6 years after divorce, the boys met again. But the problem is.. One who was straight back then now wanted another chance and other one who gave up and moved on, does the other one really feel like moving on or feel like starting a new life again with that same person? But the main question is....... Will he give a chance? Let's see 2gether.... ⚠ sexual abuse, fights, blood, angst, mature scenes, rape, violence. If anyone feel triggered don't read the story. Feel free to go away ⚠ #Contains 18+ and cuss words #Picture credit to rightful owner of Pinterest #Started on: 10 th May 2023 #Completed on: 15 th September 2023 Completed ✅ Top: Bright Bottom: Win

Pretty Monsters (Cruel Boys Of Raven Oak Prep #1) by Lenore_Ravin_9217

THE DEAD DO NOT SPEAK. For years I coexisted with the living, but my life has forever known the waking shadows of death. As a clairvoyant, I wield a rare gift to communicate with spirits abandoned to wander in search of liberation from the lives they once belonged to. A gift I must use to find answers after being condemned for my mother's mysterious murder with the assistance of a lost soul, having latched herself to mine. When my estranged father demands me to enroll in the prestigious academy he once attended, Raven Oak Prep, we learn there are secrets hidden within its beautiful walls and paved with bad intentions. Secrets someone wants me to find. Seeking the truth proves difficult when the Student Council marks me as the enemy. Four beautifully, shattered boys hiding behind their masks to play out my brother's revenge in retribution for my mother's untimely demise. When their wicked games, and my morbid investigation becomes entwined, a shared connection is discovered that may just wake the ghosts of both our pasts. DEATH FOLLOWS US. After the falsified suicide of our girlfriend, we made a vow in the name of our brotherhood to uncover the truth. In the years since, we established no leads. Time turned us into monsters. We lost hope and said Fuck You to redemption. Until Beau's sister entered the doors of our academy with secrets that rivaled our own, unbeknownst she brought a depraved serial killer to our doorsteps set on murdering our students in a twisted game. His name? He calls himself Monster. Riddle after riddle the hunt against time to unmask Monster and understand his motives, grows, as he leaves a pile of bodies whispering old tales and written in ciphers. Who will be the next one? It seems history does repeat itself. We're all pretty monsters with secrets to kill for. No one and nowhere is safe. But what if the villain of this story was never the villain at all?

THIS IS HOW IT GOES ( ORIGINALLY CALLED HE'S SO CUTE) (BOYxBOY) by arabella_tomlinson

[Book 1] "I knew the second I met you that there was something about you I needed. Turns out it wasn't something about you at all. It was just you." -Beautiful Disaster by Jamie McGuire Life for Hunter Stevens was anything but perfect. His father walked out on him, when he was only 6 years old. His mother became a workaholic and his brother took up the role as both mother and father to him. At the age of 16 he became a father to twin boys after a drunken night out with friends.He gets bullied left a right by his once best friend, turned bully, after he came out. They live in a four bedroom apartment, twenty minutes away from school. His mother works as a doctor at Phoenix Children's hospital. His brother has started a job at the local gym as a trainer. Life for him gets turned upside down when he meets the Levine siblings. One would think that everything will be normal with them around but what Hunter doesn't know is that they hide a secret, a big one that involves him. Logan Levine, had everything he ever wanted, yet he was missing something, though he didn't know just yet. His parents are happily married and have been for the past 30 years. He has an older brother and two younger siblings. He's a senior. He has the looks, the money, the popularity. His family moves from London, England, to Phoenix, Arizona due to his mother being transferred. Did I mention that he's a werewolf? He's the second to the alpha title after his brother, Lykan, steps down when Logan turns 18, which wasn't for another 4 months. What will happen when he starts school a day after arriving at Arizona and he scents his mate? What will he do when he sees a group of boys beating the boy? Will he help him or will he be just like everyone else and just watch? What about when he sees Hunter, battered and bruised at the end of the school day? Will he accept Hunter as his mate or will he reject him? Read and find out in This Is How It Goes A/N THIS IS REWRITTEN AS EVERYTHING WILL BE DIFFERENT

The Secrets of Lore Seymour by Twoony

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Quarter Breed: Escape by Girlnextdoor2021

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It just... happened? (boyxboy) by leaa4500

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Worthless (Unedited Version) by GaySensei

[Book #1 in the Blackwood Pack series] Currently in the process of rewriting (it'll be uploaded as a separate book) ________________ Asher has been abused by the man who has held him prisoner for as long as he can remember. He longs to be free from the unjust violence, but there are reasons he has to stay, people he can't leave behind. Kade has been away from his pack and finally decides to return. While doing border patrol he catches a whiff of what seems to be an average wolf. The only thing is... that wolf is his mate. Determined, Kade takes Asher away from his abuser (along with two others). Asher, not being used to people being kind, is suspicious at being welcomed into Kade's pack with open arms. Will Kade be able to show Asher that he deserves love? Can Asher take down the walls he no longer needs to survive? And what will they do when Asher's abuser wants him back, even going as far to enlist a rival pack? _________________ ---The Blackwood Pack series--- -Worthless -His Reluctant Mate (coming soon) -Let Me Be Your Drug (coming soon) -Lies and Bullet Wounds [Side Story/Prequel] (coming soon) _________________ ******Not edited****** [Trigger Warning]: Child abuse, rape, depression, and self-hate. This story is copyrighted and is the sole property of GaySensei and is not to be uploaded onto any other site besides WattPad.

Convalescence (MxM) by StxnedWriter

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I stepped forward and asked, "Where do you want me?" It took me a second to realize what I just said. Shit! I placed a hand on my crimson face and muttered, "Get your head out of the gutter! You know what I meant." He laughed, his voice sounded hoarse and deep even when he's laughing. I peeked at him from the gap I made between my fingers. He was close. So close. He grabbed my hand and took me to the bed. Damn! It did sound sexy. His shirt was loose. Too large for me, and it hung on me like a cloth hung on a hanger. He sat on the bed, criss crossed and pulled me to him. ♡♡♡♡♡ The thing about love is... its unpredictable. Even when you don't want love, it just happens. Cassandra is your typical anti-social tomboy where Easton is your black leather jacket high school bad boy. Cassandra and her siblings arrive at Brinkley mansion hoping the year to get by quickly so they can be back with their dad. But then they meet Easton who has a different plan for them. The to-be sole heir of Brinkley Inc., rude, party lover, filled with nothing but rage for the invaders in his house, becomes determined to bring the truth out to world about his father by making the lives of Cassandra and her siblings living hell. Cassandra is not supposed to fall in love with someone like Easton who not only doesn't want her here but also isn't even available. Join these two teens in their journey to find what's right kind of love, or is there even a righteousness to love? ☆ Copyright 2020 @Books_and_nerds (DestinyK.) ADDED TO THE "LOVE, ACTUALLY" READING LIST BY YOUNG ADULT ON WATTPAD! _________ ☆ I DO NOT OWN THE BOOK IMAGE OR ANY OF THE PICTURES IN THIS BOOK. -THANK YOU ☆ I DID MAKE THE BOOK COVER MYSELF (THANKS TO CANVA) ☆ DO NOT copy my hard work. The rules just became more strict and WATTPAD polices are very clear about it.