Ambivalence
MadameLoli
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  • Parts 16
  • Time 4h 55m
MadameLoli
Ongoing, First published Feb 03, 2021
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Book 4: WDNB Series (FINAL INSTALLMENT)


Ambivalence: the state of having contradictory ideas.

Kieran lives in a constant state of ambivalence. He is loved and feels unloved. He is needed and feels unneeded. He is wanted by, well everyone it seems, but yet he feels unwanted... because how could anyone want him if they knew who he really was?

Ciel, heir to the Sun Kingdom throne, wants Kieran more than anything in the world. He doesn't care that Kieran keeps him at arms distance, giving him whatever he wants but never truly letting him in. He doesn't care that Kieran seems to be hiding things from him. he doesn't even care that his parents are insisting he marry Iris.

Iris, a child of mysterious origins now a grown merman, seems desperate not to get involved. Does he want to marry Ciel? Maybe not... but he'd rather not upset the sun goddess. He's seen first hand what the wrath of Solar looks like and he's not interested.

It has been nearly eighteen years since the signing of the treaties between the Moon and Sun people. Everyday, they get once step closer to a total cease fire. Lord, future Alpha to his pack, works everyday in the name of his late brother to accomplish that goal. One day, while visiting Sun Kingdom territory, he comes across a boy with his face. 

Four young men, pawns in a chess match reaching its end... but what kind of end will it be? What could result of ambivalence to the highest degree?
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