Ambivalence
MadameLoli
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  • Reads 3,618
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  • Parts 16
  • Time 4h 55m
MadameLoli
Ongoing, First published Feb 03, 2021
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Book 4: WDNB Series (FINAL INSTALLMENT)


Ambivalence: the state of having contradictory ideas.

Kieran lives in a constant state of ambivalence. He is loved and feels unloved. He is needed and feels unneeded. He is wanted by, well everyone it seems, but yet he feels unwanted... because how could anyone want him if they knew who he really was?

Ciel, heir to the Sun Kingdom throne, wants Kieran more than anything in the world. He doesn't care that Kieran keeps him at arms distance, giving him whatever he wants but never truly letting him in. He doesn't care that Kieran seems to be hiding things from him. he doesn't even care that his parents are insisting he marry Iris.

Iris, a child of mysterious origins now a grown merman, seems desperate not to get involved. Does he want to marry Ciel? Maybe not... but he'd rather not upset the sun goddess. He's seen first hand what the wrath of Solar looks like and he's not interested.

It has been nearly eighteen years since the signing of the treaties between the Moon and Sun people. Everyday, they get once step closer to a total cease fire. Lord, future Alpha to his pack, works everyday in the name of his late brother to accomplish that goal. One day, while visiting Sun Kingdom territory, he comes across a boy with his face. 

Four young men, pawns in a chess match reaching its end... but what kind of end will it be? What could result of ambivalence to the highest degree?
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44 parts Complete Mature

Book 1 of the supernatural world series "Hey! Get down you may slip and die!!" . . "Don't worry about me I'm already dead!" _____ An ancient vampire and a high class businessman , both dominant and neither likes to submit nor being disrespected. Both followed by demons from their past, alike yet so different so why the fate brought them close? Find how a centuries year old vampire , depraved of love for eons and given up on the concept of love finds himself falling for the tall and handsome CEO on sight who himself struggles with problems of his own He wasn't expecting this or was he? One doesn't know how to love , One has been unlucky in love. So how does the 'straight' CEO finds it when a boy, a ruthless and cold vampire prince catches his eye and in a not so very straight way. One who knows nothing about boy love whereas the other, well he only knows one thing, that is killing and his crave for blood. Seems chaotic and it is. And if you add a soulmate bond , a psycho ex , crazy friends and whole lot of magic for fun. Well things get interesting. With crazy turn of events , sex and love, find out how a nightmarish creature finds himself cradled in the arms of a human. Highest rankings yet : #1 - Vampirewerewolf #1 - manxman #1 - bdsm #2 - mates #2 - supernatural #3 - soulmates #6 - gayfiction #8 - gayaf #7 - vampiresfanfiction #9- boyfriends #7 - Wattpride #47 - lgbt Word count ~ 222,000+ words Date of Completion ~ July 13th 2021

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