Iam not Perfect

I am not perfect
not at all
I am not above
hitting that wall
we all struggle
we all fall
we all cry
sometimes
over nothing at all
it's hard out here
it's real out here
it's cold out here
the blood runs cold
in the mind of a madman
it is impossible to keep control
stay in tune
with your soul
life is always
going to be hard
we will always
have to pay the toll
we will struggle
we will fall
we will scream
we will hit that wall
we will always
rise from the ashes
stronger than ever
keeping calm in an insanity
that ties everything together.

I carve insanity's name
into my bones
I've awoken and have healed
my once rotting soul
there were times
where I almost gave up
there were times
where I had enough
there were times
where I was fed up
the tears just flowed
it was all a mystery
just like not knowing
where the wild rivers go
I now know
what my tears mean
I now know
what my screams mean
I now know
what true love means
even if I'm coming apart
from the seams
I am so far from normal
my eyes are my souls portal
into everything that's real
I see so much clearer
than most people can see
I'm stuck between
my beautiful reality
and my glorious make believe.

The day I found out
how silence can be
so overwhelmingly loud
is the the day
I picked my soul
up off of the ground.

© by Wanda