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Iam not Perfect

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I am not perfect 
not at all 
I am not above 
hitting that wall 
we all struggle 
we all fall 
we all cry 
sometimes 
over nothing at all 
it's hard out here 
it's real out here 
it's cold out here 
the blood runs cold 
in the mind of a madman
it is impossible to keep control 
stay in tune 
with your soul 
life is always 
going to be hard 
we will always 
have to pay the toll 
we will struggle 
we will fall 
we will scream 
we will hit that wall 
we will always
rise from the ashes 
stronger than ever 
keeping calm in an insanity 
that ties everything together. 

I carve insanity's name 
into my bones 
I've awoken and have healed 
my once rotting soul 
there were times 
where I almost gave up 
there were times 
where I had enough
there were times  
where I was fed up
the tears just flowed 
it was all a mystery 
just like not knowing 
where the wild rivers go 
I now know 
what my tears mean 
I now know 
what my screams mean
I now know 
what true love means 
even if I'm coming apart 
from the seams
I am so far from normal 
my eyes are my souls portal
into everything that's real 
I see so much clearer 
than most people can see 
I'm stuck between 
my beautiful reality 
and my glorious make believe. 

The day I found out 
how silence can be 
so overwhelmingly loud 
is the the day 
I picked my soul 
up off of the ground. 

©  by WandaAll Rights Reserved

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