Do you want to play a game?

Why I wasn't important. Why I wasn't worth it. Why I was invisible. Why I gave up. Why I hate myself. Why I am alone. Why I got rope. Why I got a chair.

Normal things don't usually happen to me. Like getting knocked out at your own party? Exploding a science lab during an experiment? Falling off the side of your Ex's house??? (Not me, but my idiot brother Axl) This is what I call normal.

❝ i'm chasing roller coasters. i've got to have you closer now. endless romantic stories; you never could control me. ❞ © httpriarkle | 2017 rewritten. | hit 50K on 11/27/16. [DISCONTINUED]

I am not normal and I'll never be. I don't believe that I am special either. But that doesn't stop fate thinking that.

I tried to end my life, i was alone. No one was here with me. I just wanted a friend. This is my diary, my only friend, the only thing that knows me inside and out. And this is my story.

This is told from the perspective of that is read in a diary. It is simple and if you like simple then go ahead and read this. This is real events from a real diary. Permission was given to me to post. And i think it holds a lesson in this.

hurt emotionally and physically, how can maya ever recover.

it was dark and cold. i felt all alone like the whole world was collapsing in on me while everyone else quickly escaped and found their happiness. i thought i was the only one that felt empty and out of words to say. no more emotions. no more joy or happiness. no more "riley and maya". no more maya. (started: Jan. 9, 2018/finished: Jul. 18, 2019)

" Im a man of science, but I have no idea how to explain the way I feel about you"- Farkle Minkus