Desiderium

Desiderium

noun, plural des·i·de·ri·a [des-i-deer-ee-uh].
an ardent longing, as for something lost.

The night that it happened, I remember coming back to the common room, red faced and tears eyed, a faint look on my face.
I remember Neville, the twins, and Hermione running to me asking me what's wrong.
I remember sobbing on the floor after it kicked in that Draco didn't want me anymore.
I remember every word he said and every slur he called me.
I realized he wasn't who I thought he was, but what everyone says he is. Cruel, rude, a bully.