"Sometimes even the most caring people go numb." Only read this book if you first read Gone Girl. ((Book 3 out now)) A year after her last hope vanished. Things aren't the same for Veronica Reeves. Derek Forster, her former lover is behind bars serving a five years sentence. He ignored her visits, her letters, he completely vanished from her life without any closure. Veronica's addiction and pain never went away and college is making it harder to survive. She finds new ways to cope with her sexual abuse trauma and losing someone who truly cared for her. Everyone is pressuring her into moving on but she deeply feels in her heart that there is a reason behind his disappearance. It turns out losing him was just the beginning of the hell that was about to unleash. "You only cry for help if you believe there is help to cry for." - Wentworth Miller [[ word count: 100.000 ]] Started: April 19, 2021 Completed: march 4, 2022 TW: sex, violence, drug and alcohol abuse, sexual abuse, death, eating disorder