Kavya Perrera only has one goal in life: survive the day. At school, she laughs with her four best friends, flirts with her crush of whom she suspects is beginning to return her feelings and, fake it to her teachers. when she gets home, she tiptoes around her mum and dad, pisses off her older brother by just breathing and most importantly: doesn't let any of them see just how much she has no idea what she's doing. When the day's done, she'll go to sleep and wake up the next morning to do it all over again.
Ok, so Kavya does have bigger goals: The Goal, which entails getting into a prestigious university in the big city to study to become a doctor. Once she begins the next chapter of her life, she'll finally get to be the person she's always wanted to be (whoever that is) and never look back. But she's got more that one year left of high school so until then, Kavya is stuck in her small regional town she begrudgingly calls home.
However, life is not easy for a first-generation Australian child of Sri Lankan immigrant parents. Her whole life, Kavya has felt like she has one foot in two separate worlds, and for sixteen years, she's managed to keep them as they're supposed to be: separate. But in between interchanging friendship groups, late night texts, top-secret concert rehearsals and, keeping up with her parents' and her own expectations for her studies, Kavya's two worlds are quickly heading for collision with each other. Can she find equal ground with the best of both worlds, or will she crash and burn?
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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