Were you only staying alive for you, or someone else who didn't deserve you love? Were you only trying because you wanted to show yourself that you can do it? Or was it because you know he was watching? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ This is a story that is somewhat based on my story and what I went through. Please note that almost all of this is also fiction. This story as many mentions of suicide, self-harm, abuse, and angst. Therefore this is rated mature. If you are not comfortable with the context within this story please do not read. I am not responsible for your triggers. If you don't like the story please just block me. Thank you to all that read this and enjoy this. I love you all.