Sydney (you) has been trying so hard to fend for herself. With nobody to help raise her ever since the apocalypse happened, she had to learn for herself. Twisting and turning through groups, that was her strategy. Using others when she needed it. And then she would leave. You could say she was selfish. This one group though, planned out a little differently causing to trauma. Leaving as soon as she could she was desperate even though she never wanted to be in a group again. She led in and this group seemed unalike the others.