Drums Of Despair
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MatureOngoing18m
Last published Fri, Feb 12, 2021
So this is basically a story based on my life and the most recent events over the past years. I've based the characters in this story on the people around me, including myself as the main character, the only differences are that I'll change most of their names (including my own) and I'll fantisize about how this story will continue (kind of like fantasizing about the not so far future). Here it goes:
Sam's life has been a complete mess over the past couple of years. He's only 17 and has dealt with so much, he's had enough of it. He decides to give it another chance once what's left of his family moves to a town in Massachussetts near his grandparents for the sake of his mom's mental health.
TW/Mentions: drugs, overdose, suicide, depression, mental health, homosexuality (if you have a problem with that just leave lol)
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