Toward the Pain

PART 1 - The Pieces Series

---

When you already have everything- including your dream of performing in
front of hundreds of thousands of people who admire, adore, and are head over heels crazy for you- would you risk it all just because you're already sick of it?

We've been performing since we were sixteen years old, and damn, it's been seven years since then. Kahit hindi nila aminin, I can see it in their eyes as well.

Nakakapagod na.

We're on the verge of disbanding, yet here I am, like a fool, performing my heart out. Expecting that the spark I once had would slowly come back. Wishing that the magic I felt while performing on that small, tight stage seven years ago would ignite a flame and burn me with passion again. Hoping someone would slap me in the face and say, "Nicolo, nandito ka na oh! Hawak-hawak mo na ang pangarap mo. Bibitawan mo na lang ba 'yan nang ganun lang?"

Because truth to be told, I don't know what happened. Is it just because I'm tired, or did a part of me change - the part that made me lose the core reason why I'm here? How can we let go of something we once loved like fools before? That thing that gave color to our lives suddenly turned black and white in just a snap?

Would I risk it all? Or find that part of me that I've lost.