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Shell Of A Man

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"I guess just spending time with some people fixes everything."

Carrying the burdens of his past was Jason Smith. Numb. Emotionless. After all those years, what remained was just a shell of a human being. Dragging his life, one day at a time, because of the promises he made to his mother.

Carrying the guilt of being the sole survivor of an accident was Raymond Holt. But, when life gave him a second chance to be alive, he accepted it with open arms. Burying the guilt deep inside, he lived his life to the fullest. He was quite the ray of sunshine.

When the two guys first met at the NYU Law School, differences occurred, but eventually, they fell for each other. But, college love is young love, and it doesn't always withstand the hardships of life. Being oblivious to what they had found with each other broke their hearts, and they walked their separate ways.

Years later, when they cross paths again, the circumstances are against them. Will they be able to overcome their differences? Will they be able to correct their mistakes and make up for the lost time? Most importantly, will they be able to move on from what transpired all those years ago? Read to find out.

A/N: I don't know shit about the law. This is everything that I learned by watching Suits and How To Get Away With Murder. Correct me wherever needed. :)All Rights Reserved

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