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Lost In The Silence

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Reads 196
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Parts 6
Time 52m

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I squeeze my eyes shut when I feel my throat closing up, suddenly I find myself gasping for oxygen with my arms wrapped tightly around my torso, hugging myself. As I rock back and forth on the heels of my feet, I beg for this to be some twisted nightmare that will go away when I wake up. But it's not.

"Please," I muttered, "this isn't real. This isn't real. This isn't real. God please let this not be real. Please. Please." I croaked out into the silence, my voice barely above a measly whisper.

I cover my ears with my hands, this isn't happening. This isn't happening. This is happening.

After a few minutes I open my eyes and slowly uncross my arms. I need help.

---

Valerie Ellings. The girl with a smile always gracing her lips and a loving attitude that draws everyone in. 

Now she's the aftermath of a horrifying sexual assault. The once carefree girl long gone, and in it's place was someone determined to hide her pain from the world now more than ever.

The police didn't believe her, her university's president didn't believe her, and if they didn't, who would? The people who were supposed to help her are the ones threatening her and forcing her to stay quiet, leaving her to discover that something bigger and more appalling than she could imagine is going on behind the scenes. 

Learning to face her traumas and slowly heal, Valerie goes in a journey of self-discovery with a new determination to not be silenced. 


Trigger Warnings: sexual assault, child abuse, depression, self harm, anxiety [attacks], mature language and themes

Started: 3/9/2021All Rights Reserved

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BASED ON REAL LIFE STORIES... First, welcome to the first ever and most active support club! We whole heartedly welcome you amazing people who have battled their fights like real heroes and never gave up. Your scars are the tattoos of your bravery, strength and courage. Support club provides you a platform to share your real life experiences with the world. You've the right to speak you opinion, let everyone hear you. Let people know, how strong and fearless you're. This is a place where everyone will listen to you, help you, catch you, heal you but will never let you fail. "It's okay to be tired, you're allowed to take a strategic time out. But giving up is not an option. Get up, stand up, fix your crown and play the resume button on your life." You can share anything and everything you want. Even the silliest of problems, because no problem is silly if it can disturb your mind. Even if you're tensed about, why isn't my book geting a better response, then we will help you out of it as well. Trouble just knocked your door? Support club is your call! Anything and everything, any time and anywhere! We are waiting to listen to your battles, all you've to do is pour them out. No one will judge, no one will comment, it's just you and your amazing tales. We will try our best to provide solutions; from boyfriend troubles to sick of office work, from teenage dramas to emotional issues, from mental scars to irrational fight: we are here for you!