My Motives
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Last published Thu, May 6, 2021
I'm the antagonist in this story.
trigger warning: death, mental abuse, drug abuse, suicide mentions
songs that go with this story:
1. six feet under- billie eilish
2. this is home- cavetown
3. single- the neighbourhood
4. fast car- tracy chapman
5. breakaway- lennon stella
6. dead girl in the pool- girl in red
7. attention- joji
8. going under- evanescence
9. ribs- lorde
10. lonely- noah cyrus
11. how will i rest in peace if i'm buried by a highway- kennyhoopla
12. hayloft- mother mother
13. mad at you- noah cyrus
14. easy- pale waves
15. afraid- the neighbourhood
16. jenny was a friend of mine- the killers
17. no body, no crime- taylor swift & HAIM
18. all apologies- nirvana
19. painkiller- beach bunny
20. idontwannabeyouanymore- billie eilish
21. psychotic kids- yungblood
22. sports- beach bunny
23. promises- beach bunny
24. i only like when i love you- royal blood
25. honestly- lil peep
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