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My Motives

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I'm the antagonist in this story.

trigger warning: death, mental abuse, drug abuse, suicide mentions 


songs that go with this story: 
1. six feet under- billie eilish 
2. this is home- cavetown
3. single- the neighbourhood
4. fast car- tracy chapman
5. breakaway- lennon stella 
6. dead girl in the pool- girl in red
7. attention- joji
8. going under- evanescence
9. ribs- lorde
10. lonely- noah cyrus
11. how will i rest in peace if i'm buried by a highway- kennyhoopla
12. hayloft- mother mother
13. mad at you- noah cyrus
14. easy- pale waves
15. afraid- the neighbourhood
16. jenny was a friend of mine- the killers
17. no body, no crime- taylor swift & HAIM
18. all apologies- nirvana
19. painkiller- beach bunny 
20. idontwannabeyouanymore- billie eilish 
21. psychotic kids- yungblood
22. sports- beach bunny
23. promises- beach bunny 
24. i only like when i love you- royal blood 
25. honestly- lil peepAll Rights Reserved

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Just A Thought by juayxx

Something tragic has happened. A 17 year old Valeri has to move to her dad's place. She spent all her life thinking he was dead. Her now dead mother told her that. Not knowing she has a twin brother she flies over the country and meets him there. She comes back into lives of people she once knew and loved. Not just her family. But someone else. A boy who took care of her when she was struggling. Her best friend. Valeri is dealing with addictions and when something at her new home happens, she sinks even lower. It might not end well for her. But she has friends now. Her kind brother, two funny friends and someone else she once knew... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Heyy! This is my first book. 1. I want to make it clear that English is not my first language and there might be writing mistakes. 2. ⚠️BEFORE YOU START READING CHECK TWs BELOW⚠️ 3. I myself struggle with an addiction and I think writing this book will help me process everything. That's another reason why I'm doing it. 4. You're welcome to comment but leave if you're here to write hate comments. I don't care what you think. 5. If you're here just for smut this is not a book for you. There might be some scenes but not many. This story is about struggling, dealing and fighting with addictions. 6. I'll post a new chapter every few days. I have a lot of schoolwork but I'll try my best. ⚠️TRIGGER WARNINGS: panic and anxiety attacks, self harm, sexual assault and rape, eating disorder, drinking and smoking, weed, pills, drug addiction, overdose, suicide attempt, depression, ptsd, swearing, mature content TROPES: -childhood best friend -friends to lovers -brother's best friend -who did this to you? -one bed trope I'LL PROBABLY ADD SOME MORE I hope you'll enjoy it!

A Big Book of Short Stories by WGHTheKing

A collection of my ideas. While most could have been cared for and nurtured until they grew into fully fledged books, they have only matured halfway, creating a efficient way to get stuck in your head. I'll also post short stories that I may or may not try turning into novels. From "The Kid is Hot Tonight," a story about such topics as high school parties and domestic abuse. To "Just Another Nightmare," a story about a kind of hell you might never have thought of. This collection will likely make you question if something is wrong with me. Spoiler alert; there is. It will also show you the farthest reaches of the world and the furthest horrors that I can write about. If you want an update on how the next story is coming along, you can ask me however you want. Seriously I'm so so lonely...

Tyler Joseph Imagines by -M-I-N-E-

Tyler x reader / Jyler Be aware that these contain anything ranging from: self harm, sexual content (makeouts, talks of sex etc.), NO detailed smut, profanity, anxiety, and depression. If those trigger you I suggest you read with caution. However, at the beginning of every chapter I give warnings for what could possibly be triggering. This is considered a one shot/imagines book. If you would like to check out my other books, Completed books: We'll Pee When We Get To Europe (• Twenty One Pilots Short Story •) (which is also included in this book) We're Human. • Jyler • • Ongoing books: Tyler Joseph - Short Stories Alive | ør | Asleep: We're Human Book Two • Enjoy. Don't forget to vote, and comment. I enjoy reading your messages.❤️ • #1 Trench # 2 Blurryface #15 Debbyryan #1 jennajoseph #1 jish #2 jishwa #2 twentyonepilotsimagines #15 tyjo #1 tylerjosephfluff #1 tylerjosephimagines #5 tylerxreader #10 vessel

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...We were so caught up in the shared moment of care free joy to notice the midnight grey Toyota pickup truck speeding directly towards us. Meters before impact dad finally caught on to what was about to happen, despite it being day the approaching vehicle's headlights blinded us as our cars breaks slammed on, the sound of the tires melting away as the rubber tires scraped against the pavement filled the air and the scent of burning rubber overwhelmed my nostrils, despite our efforts the brakes didn't slow us down, we were to late. There was nothing we could do as we collided head on..." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Attempt two at writing a book lmao, summaries without spoilers are not my strong point but here you go: After a tragic child hood accident Astra is left utterly alone, forcing her to make a massive move across the states to live in Tennessee with her grandmother. A few years pass and Astra finds it difficult to deal with the trauma she experienced as a young child, but surrounded by friends and throwing herself into education she starts to heal, until she meets Jason. In the beginning Jason was a kind, caring guy who seemed genuinely interested in getting to know Astra, but not everyone is who they seem to be. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TW LIST!!!! (there's alot) swearing PTSD/past trauma Character death Violence/ injury detailing Stalking Kidnapping Depression, anxiety Panic attacks Alcohol and drug usage Over thinking Self harm/sabotage Survivors guilt Potential homophobia HEAVY Eating disorders If there's anything you think needs to be posted as a TW then let me know, also please don't read if there is anything that triggers you. Some of these topics are personal, don't be afraid to reach out if you need to talk or ask anything :) Also this is my first solo writing project so any feedback positive/negative is appreciated, writing tips for anything too, hope you enjoy. - jammy :) 24/09/24 - ?

VALERIE by xxmils

He speaks as if he knows everything, he trips over his own tongue like the intelligent person he is. The lingering taste of vodka and whiskey taint his sinful chapped lips. When he walks he stumbles, he smells like nicotine and he's cold. Ice resides in his veins and heart but not even the hell like flames of hatred and anger burning within his mind can freeze over. She's sweet like honeysuckle. She's warm and physically beautiful with her long brown hair and different colored gaze. When she smiles, the entire world stops to look and stare at her. Yet underlying her forced smile and physical perfection, dwells the monster that is her mental illness that she cannot control. Being beautiful doesn't hide it either, only mass doses of prescription pills do. In which an 18-year-old who believes he hasn't much to live for leaves his small sleepy town in hopes of finding his mother who abandoned him years ago. All the while a 17-year-old girl with severe Manic Depression tags along in hopes of being distracted from her illness and to also find peace of mind and happiness elsewhere. ** Inspired by music, specifically The 1975, Lana Del Rey, and others. ** Rough draft in desperate need of editing, plot holes, grammatical issues, etc. * not cliche but cliche it has it moments, but also so many plot twists so idk yeah. Mature Content. Read at your own will. Copyrighted ©

It Doesn't Even Matter by butterbreadfly

Max is struggling, plain and simple. After dropping out of school two years ago to help his mom with the bills and losing his best friend, he's just kind of shut things out. His life has been in pure survival mode. Work, pay bills, survive. But things only getting more complicated when he's ripped away from everything he's ever known. His mom, never the most put together woman has an affair with her married boss and gets pregnant. Now she's decided to move them both to Beverly Hills and into his place! With new step siblings that hate him before they've even met and a man that thinks he can just jump in and be his father, Max has had just about enough of everything. On top of all that he's starting up school again, and with these new fancy rich kids, Max feels even more suffocated and out of place then he did before. Will Max figure out his place or fall farther and farther into the background suffocating?

Welcome To Your Fate | • The Music Freaks by myuravity

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Stephen x Hosuh (angst oneshots) by NinesAnderson

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Ran Right Into Him by iwouldkillforroamnce

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