My Truth
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Last published Mon, Jun 20, 2022
Isn't it lovely the innocence of a child. They have a world that is pure and nothing more, but there are few who weren't able to experience that. There are various reason as to this very cause, some of them didn't have the chance to begin with and others went through hell on earth to discover the truth of how truly evil and dark the world is. And in full in honesty we both now that you and me are part of the few who couldn't escape the monsters of this world. And I wouldn't be telling a lie if we wished to turn back time to the days were our minds' weren't black but now we're stressed out.
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If you're wondering, yes the quote/description is done by me (although I don't think it could be considered a quote but who knows)
So I basically made this book to rant about my 'poetic' thoughts that I have when I'm down
Pls do keep in mind that I'm not a person who has the healthiest mind out there so this thoughts can be triggering to other people as it will talk about sensitive topics such as self harm, depression, anxiety, eating disorders, and many more things that will come up as I keep updating this.
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