FATED

Have you ever questioned yourself? What’s my purpose? Am I going to be happy? Do I deserve this kind of pain before I could reach the zenith? How am I supposed to live kung sinusuka na ako ng mundo?

I faced too many rejections. I endured lots of backstabbing. I felt countless of emotions.

Sa punto na ako nang pagsuko. I am on the tip of the “iceberg of hopelessness” and ready to fall head first.

But somehow, somewhere in the back of my mind is telling me to hold on for a little bit longer.

Sa tuwing gusto ko ng tapusin ang walang kwenta kong buhay ay may bumubulong saakin na “wag, wag muna” and I always end up crying my hearts out holding the sharp silver thing that could end someone’s life.
Somehow I trust my subconscious that someday there will be a turning point that could make me feel alive, loved and important.
Makakamit ko baa ng kinaasam-asam kong pagmamahal? Kaligayahan? At kumpletong pamilya?

Wherever this may lead me, nagpapasalamat ako sa Panginoon na binibigyan niya ako ng pag-asang magpatuloy.