Manusia dilahirkan untuk menjemput takdir, meniti jalan, dan menjalani hidup masing-masing. Tapi, masih banyak yang belum mengetahui untuk apa ia hidup dan bagaimana hidup ini akan terus berlanjut.
An, kamu selalu berhasil menjalani apapun, tapi kamu bahkan ga tau apa yang kamu mau dari hal yang kamu tuju. Sedangkan aku, selalu tau apa yang aku mau, tapi hal yang aku tuju gak pernah peduli sama aku. Usaha aku kurang keras ya? aku nyerah aja ya? Kalau aku udah ngomong kaya gitu, kamu pasti bakal marah panjang lebar, terus dengan gampangnya noyor kepala aku dan sekejap kemudian ngerasa bersalah, terus kamu bakal usap bekas toyoran itu dan bilang, kalau kamu sayang aku. Hubungannya apa coba? Gak ada. Tapi setiap kamu bilang itu, terima kasih, aku akan ngerasa beban aku hilang sekejap.
senjasabtu universe 2021
Reandra Mahardika
Parisya
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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