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Dying to Breathe

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Reads 5,928
Votes 1,121
Parts 50
Time 6h 47m

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Millie went missing three months ago. Police suspect the worst. Penelope refuses to give up.

When she finds the cryptic note Millie left for her, she finds herself on a wild chase through worlds she never thought she'd know. Through a love story that consumes her, a mystery that suffocates her, and lies that surround her, Penelope discovers a side to herself that is insatiable. And just as quickly, finds out what the cost is to learning the truth of what happened the night Millie went missing.

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The alcohol swirled Penelope's head as she copied him, his cold uncaring eyes the only unmoving thing in her vision. He was like a beacon in the night-and she was drawn to the light. She wanted to strangle him, to hurt him the way he hurt her. But she also wanted something else-something more. Her hands shook as her feet, with their own mind, crossed the distance to him. 

He had long since looked away, his jaw as stiff as the rest of his body the closer she got. But he stayed-for once, he didn't run away. Penelope looked at him, conflicting emotions swimming inside her heart.

She wanted him-to touch him, to feel his hands on her skin, to be with him, to never leave him. 

"I hate you." She said it again, confirming the words as the tears fell faster down her flushed cheeks. "Why? Why didn't you stop them?" She grabbed his leather jacket, clenching the material in her hands; desperate for answers, for a do-over, for something.
 
Something that he could never give to her no matter how hard she searched. 

His eyebrows cinched together as his blue eyes watered, staring at nothing and knowing full-well he couldn't be the relief to her trauma. He shook his head with a dark pained smile on his face, "It's ironic that I tried though, isn't it?"

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Started: Feb 21st, 2021 
100 votes: April 3rd, 2021
1k reads: June 4th 2021

11/30ish chapters completed 🤭All Rights Reserved

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You Don't Know Me

I could still feel the numbness in my limbs and the piercing pain on my shoulder as I tried to adjust my eyes to the light. There was a constant banging sound in my ear and it was slowly fading away. My vision was blurry and as i adjust my focus, i saw all four of my so called brothers in front of me. They all looked.....worried. I was still not used to their insane acting skills because for a sec i believed it. Maybe I was deceiving myself. What if they actually cared? Before i completely lost it i woke up and tried to pull the plugs and syringe in me....and to say I regretted it was an understatement. Raffaele immediately held me and Damian was screaming for the doctor. I snapped and pushed him away. I didn't know why I was in an hospital. The last thing I remember was holding a gun against my head. "Where is he" The first person I looked for as soon as I woke up was him but he was no where to be seen. I was scared for him, my brothers were capable of doing anything. "He is dead" I couldn't make out who said it because as soon as I heard it my world went black. ******** Amelia was deceived her whole life. The man she thought was her father was actually her kidnapper. She was locked away from the world her entire life and the constant abuse was all that she could remember . Years later, her brothers comes back to get her after finding out their long lost sister is alive...... But these brothers can't keep their little princess to themselves for long. Lucas Hermandez. To him Amelia is his light, the only one who can tame this demon. The moment when she went missing he turned the world upside down trying to find her. He'd burn the world if it meant he could find her. What will happen when he finds out she's back? Amelia's determined about one thing - never to trust anyone again, and her brothers are reluctant to win back her trust. She is no longer the sweet girl they once knew.