Not Today
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A personal testimony for when I tried killing myself, but was saved
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She was done with life. She felt too weary to hold on. She found no reason to keep on existing. So she devised a way out. But on the night she planned to take her own life, a twisted version of a fairytale came through for her. A stranger in shining armor came to her rescue, stopping her from carrying out what she deemed to be the best decision she had ever made. Unrelenting and with ingratitude soaring as high as a mountain peak, she vowed to try again. Her desperation to exit this world kept increasing. Next time there would be no disturbances. However, the GOD of Heaven had something more beautiful for her in mind. Not as a twisted fairytale though. It would be the real deal this time around, through God's own way. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 3rd place under the General Fiction category in the WalkbyFaith Awards 2021.
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