what's wrong with me?

this is a short story that i wrote when i was stressed and needed a way to relax. this following story could be very triggering, so please be kind to yourself.

most triggers in tags, but here's a few more: self hatred, unexplained guilt, body shaming, undiagnosed gender dysphoria, self harm, ED, suicidal thoughts.

i doubt anyone will see this, but if you do, please enjoy.