Turning Tables

R-21 MATURE CONTENT
Wonderland Series #5
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I used to be a chase fiend kinda girl. May it be hobbies, work, friends, sex...madali akong magsawa. They said na sadya raw akong maarte at matigas ang ulo,kaya kaunting inconvenience ay kaagad na akong umaayaw.

Umaalis. Lumilipat. Permanence was never in my vocabulary.

At bakit naman ako magtityagang mag-adjust kung marami namang pagpipilian?

Choices that were much better, easier and pleasurable? It was not my fault that men mistake my red flags to be their butterflies. At bakit ko kailangang mag explain? Were they the ones walking with my skin on and enjoying every waking moment of my life? Hindi naman so, no. I could care less.

Well that was my mindset then, for the second I stepped inside Wonderland? I came face to face with the truth: that I was alone. That no matter how much I ran, I was and always would...run in circles.

And I was...alone. Simple as that.

The epiphany led me to start changing my goals in life, that was, if I even had any. I denounced my old lifestyle, started practicing self control and landed a job that I believed I would actually like for a long term.

But it was hard, alright. It got even harder when my work assigned me to one Javier Aragon. That man...god...who introduced me to Wonderland. He brought out all kinds of desperation in me lalo pa at alam kong wala naman siyang interes sa akin maliban sa mainit na bagay sa gitna ng mga hita ko. And I hated that.

But I was like a masochist moth to the flame for Javier just makes me want to say yes whenever he's around...but I also wanted to chase him, corner him, make him submit and taste him over and over 'till I feel like I was back in control.

Then what? So that I can run again? Probably.

Or for once, maybe...I'll...stay.

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