Chasing my Dreams

As I lay in my bed thingking about what I have now. I can't help questioning myself. It is really worth it? Am I really happy? Am I contented?

Masaya ba ako na I lost someone important for my dreams? I have a lot of what if's na alam ko na hindi ko na kayang gawin. I can't blame myself though for choosing dreams because somehow I make my family proud of me and I can finally say that I am proud of myself for acheiving my goals. But what if diba? What if he's with me while achieving my goals. What if hindi siya napagod kakaintind sakin? What if kami parin? What if we acheive our dreams together? Magiging masaya ba ako? Maybe.

While thinking of those what if's I didn't notice the tears that slowy falling from my eyes. I still can't stop thinking of him. Knowing he's happy in someone else arms. That someones who made him happy more than he is when he still mine.

Was it worth it?

Leaving him....

To chase my dream?