lost in my head
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Ongoing20m
Last published Wed, Jun 2, 2021
TW!!!
abuse, sex, swearing, violence and harassment, please do no read if you know anything like that will trigger you!!!
"I'm sorry babe" I say, I try to make it sound sincere but I stopped feeling a long time ago, he know's it too, maybe that's why he's constantly angry, because I don't love him? because I don't care for him? because the trust I have in myself has been washed away after everytime I tried convincing myself that he was worth it, and after he proved that I was lying to myself everytime. Anyone in this position would feel the same yet I feel so alone, what am I supposed to do? run away? except I have nowhere nor no one I can run to and that feels a whole lot scarier then staying.
It's all his fault, or maybe it's mine, I let him act like this, infact I would blame myself for creating this monster since I was always too young and naive to fight back and instead I just told myself it was 'because he loved me' except for 2 years I've been dealing with this same 'love' that has slowly drained any young living girl that was once in me. "Don't sass me you b!tch" he screams and I just close my eyes, go one and hit me like you always do, I don't care anymore, hit me, kick me, slap me, kill me.
I used to be lost in your eyes, in your touch, in your voice, but now...now I'm just lost my head and no one can save me.
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"I love you" she says and kisses my jaw tenderly. "I love you too baby" I reply stroking her still damp hair. We were sat in a dirty McDonald's car park. We could be sat in a fucking pile of trash and I wouldn't care. Because I would be with her. As long as I'm with her, nothing else matters. -------------------------------------------------------- After all he had known was anger and hatred she was like a breath of fresh air to him. With just one look into her mesmerizing chocolate eyes and one listen to her angelic voice he knew he was ruined. He despised this feeling. He felt helpless. No matter how much he tried to stay away he was drawn to her and he knew he was playing a very dangerous game. Leaving the pain of her past behind her she starts a fresh in a new town with her older brother. Meeting the towns bad boy was not on her agenda but every time she saw him she was intrigued. He was rude and had a terrible attitude, but his eyes didn't show anything but pain which is something she knew all too well. They are complete opposites but have one thing in common. They are both broken, maybe just maybe they could be the cure to each others pain. ⚠️ this story contains mentions of abuse and alcohol so if you are not comfortable with this please do not read my story.
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